Saturday, March 31, 2012

1538 - 1550

1538. A new home for my computer (upstairs off the beaten path)
1539. Two boys giggling, laughing and quite thrilled tossing balls around
1540. Cleaning our mudroom
1541. Organizing my desk
1542. The way Avi looks at her brothers
1543. Getting a second opinion (the same) about Avonlea's eyes (infantile esotropia) - surgery would be a hard decision if there were varying opinions.
1544. The Lord's prayer
1545. A sweet email from my dad
1546. The boys in full winter gear playing in the sandbox
1547. Knowing that won't be necessary too much longer (the winter gear)
1548. A daily walk with the Creator of the universe
1549. A very unexpected compliment from someone I'm pretty insecure around (perhaps God's trying to tell me something)
1550. The fact that God communicates with His people - and that somehow, I'm one of His people :)

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

My flesh

Those of you who know me well (ok, even just a little) know I have a tendency to beat myself up.  I often think things like, if I was a really a Christian I wouldn't have such a strong battle with sin.  I have always felt like my sin nature was beating my new nature.  But last night a good friend said something so wonderfully freeing and encouraging.  She said your battle is not against your sin nature - you don't have a sin nature.  It is against your flesh.  At first I didn't really understand the difference...even as Matt and I were driving home I still didn't get it.  I pondered it as I fell asleep and when I woke up this morning it just hit me.  Yes, I was born with a sin nature - we all are!  But the moment I accepted Christ as my Savior I was (and am) a new creation.  Where does that leave me though?  I still struggle with sin. Who cares whether we call it "a sin nature" or "flesh".  I was praying about that very thing and I asked God to give me some sort of analogy so that I could visualize the difference.  I almost immediately pictured one of many images I have seen of animals nursing a different type of animal.  For example a dog nursing a kitten, a pig nursing a puppy etc...and remembered how often in those situations as the kitten or puppy grows up they tend to act more like the breed they are spending time with than their own breed.  However, whether they act like it or not, they are and will always be DIFFERENT!  Before I had even fully thought through that analogy another one popped into my head - the velveteen rabbit.  This one might even be a bit more theologically sound (because the bunny does not start out real - he starts out as a toy).  Later in the story, after he has become a real bunny - it takes him a little while to learn how to use his legs.  I am like that bunny - I am new, I am real - it is just taking me a while (and will take my whole life) to learn how (and allow the Holy Spirit in me) to be who I really am.

So, how and why does this whole idea effect me so positively?  Well when I am heading down the beat myself up, I'm such a bad person path - I am going to try to remember that though I may have made a bad decision, had a bad attitude, fallen into temptation once again, that is not who I am.  I am not a bad person.  I am a new creation.  It is Christ who lives in me and not myself.  And as far as the battle against the flesh (not my sinful nature - that is gone) - yes, it will continue. There is a lot of reprogramming that needs to be done.  I continually forget who I am and act more like who I used to be.

New International Version (©1984)
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"

Monday, March 26, 2012

1514 - 1537

1514. Seven turkeys in our front yard - two thrilled boys.
1515. A week of incredibly rejuvenating weather and thankfulness for all seasons
1516. II Corinthians 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 
1517. Being encouraged by the struggles and weaknesses of fellow mommies this weekend - remembering that I am not alone, parenting is challenging for all and God is glorified in our weaknesses as they lead us to His throne.
1518. Holding Matt's hand
1519. The sacrificial love of a dear family who watched, played with, loved on and encouraged our three kiddos this weekend
1520. Spending time with friends I've missed - even those who only live a few miles away
1521. Feeling the prayers of a friend
1522. Jesus is ENOUGH - (highly recommend reading Katie's incredible journey - she's given up, and therefor gained, everything for the Lord, and yet it is still in her weakness (and honesty regarding it) that I find much encouragement.
1523. "It is finished" John 19:30 - My sin (past, present and future) not in part but in whole is totally and completely forgiven - and has been from the moment those words passed from our Savior's mouth.
1524. Pushing two laughing brothers (together) in our hammock swing
1525. Sea shell collections in March
1536. Blake and Cole saying "hi" to people passing us on the beach, UPS drivers and those many of us (including myself) can easily walk by without so much as a glance.
1537. The sound of wind chimes outside my window and three waking babies (ok, one waking baby and 2 big boys)

Thursday, March 8, 2012

1500 - 1513

1500. Chunky baby legs
1501. Compassion where there was once anger
1502. Tricycles on the Belfast bridge
1503. Praying with Matt
1504. Christ's blood that covers me
1505. The book Because He loves me, and the friend who gave it to me
1506. The song "His banner over me is love" which keeps running through my mind
1507. The promise that "He who begins a good work in me will be faithful to complete it"
1508. A faith family that lovingly, encouragingly accepts us even when we are making difficult decisions
1509. Friends who not only pray for me, but ask for prayer
1510. Avonlea's bottom two teeth which I can almost always see - because of the HUGE grin that she wears constantly
1511. Singing boys
1512. Hymns - and pandora
1513. Family, both immediate and extended, that love me no matter what.