Grace in the Midst

     I finally got my hands on the book Unglued  that I mentioned in my previous post .  I haven't even finished the second chapter and I'm already feeling inspired enough to write again.  Sweet.  Inspiration feels so good these days, and having the energy to follow through with the inspiration - even better!  Anyway, back to  Lysa TerKeurst  (the author of Unglued).  So she had another one liner that really stuck out to me...  "I can face  things  that are out of my  control  and not  act  out of  control ."  She proceeded to tell of a time when her computer broke down mid project and she totally lost it (or should I say became unglued).  She ended up having to get a new computer, but luckily the tech-support guy was able to make a copy of her hard drive - so she still had access to pertinent files.  A few months later, her new laptop was stolen.  She held it together a li...

     More than a year ago my mother and I started a project.  Puzzles.  My kids love puzzles.  There were pieces everywhere - and broken boxes - and missing boxes (not to mention missing pieces).  I had the bright idea of getting rid of all the boxes, numbering the puzzles (so when I find a random piece I know where to put it) and hanging them, in order of course, in perfectly crafted plastic bags.  So we started.  We numbered the puzzles...well at least half of them - and then decided to go shopping for the perfect bags and/or rack to hang them on.  We couldn't find either.  So there I was with a whole bunch of puzzles out of their boxes and shoved into zip lock bags (and not even the kind with those cool slider things).  Well, there wasn't time to finish the project - so all the bags got shoved into a box and plopped in the basement.  I kept thinking I'd either find the perfect bags or at least borrow my husbands gromitt...

1649. Avonlea's delight as she puts things in and takes things out of small boxes, cups etc... 1650. A receptive heart 1651. Blake looking for ways to help his mommy, daddy and siblings on a regular basis 1652. Losing the letter "E" of a vowel game - and then, finding it after praying I would 1653. Helping a friend create an inviting and comfy place to chat with friends 1654. Enjoying time with friends 1655. A curious little mouse 1656. Dishwasher soap - you don't realize how much you appreciate it until you run out :) 1657. Thankful list reminders on pre-scribbled paper 1658. Watching Avonlea interact happily and bring joy to her Drs and therapists 1659. Begging God for contentment and joy, feeling so far from it - and Him pouring out more and more blessing - until I couldn't help but smile 1660. A friend who prayed for me as soon as I asked her to 1661. Watching God answer her prayers 1662. Being used despite myself 1663. An unexpected break and ev...

Wow, it has been a while since I've blogged (other than my gifts list)- and, to be honest I wasn't sure if I'd blog again.  I've been putting up walls in so many areas of my life.  Letting hurts control me...not wanting to let anyone in to this broken soul of mine.  But, tonight I realized that the walls aren't protecting me - their just hurting me...and probably, hurting others.  So here I am.  I'm ready to stop protecting myself and start being myself again.  The thickest wall I've built has been between God and I - but luckily he sees right through the bricks I lay.  He loves me - bricks and all.  He is longing for me to accept His love.  He isn't witholding His love until I  read 15 chapters of scripture a day or spend hours in an uninterrupted prayer closet (though I'm sure He longs for me to long for Him).  He just keeps loving me, and keeps pouring out blessing after blessing.  His unconditional love is something that I ...

1628. A friend painting my toe nails 1629. Avonlea giggling, jumping and swinging in her Johnny Jump Up. 1630. God's patience with me. 1631. Intercessors 1632. Blake asking if we could pray for Avonlea at dinner (after he brought up the bible story where Jesus heals a mans eyes) 1633. Sharing our favorites/least favorites at dinner 1634. Friends coming over for dinner and entertaining & enjoying our kiddos for more than an hour 1635. Skyping with GiGi & Gdad 1636. Running out of clothes for Avonlea, & getting beautiful dresses and pjs from GiGi 1637. Blake - after getting a new plate from GiGi "I am so, so, so, so happy - I think I'll go out and buy GiGi a big ol' present." 1638. God's sovereignty through difficult times - both in my life and in the lives of those I care about 1639. Answered prayer - in the form of a table and chairs 1640. Unexpected time to myself 1641. Psalm 127:3 1642. Playing "vowel games" with the boys ...

1607. A care package straight from GiGi's heart 1608. Avonlea blowing kisses 1609. Petting a camel 1610. Evening strolls in down town belfast 1611. Blake and Cole throwing sticks for a cute dog named Una 1612. Pink clouds 1613. Ice cream cones filled with animal feed 1614. Cole's expression each time he shouted "he eat it mamma, he eat it" (referring to the goat he was feeding) 1615. Chicken on the grill 1616. Avonlea in the sand box 1617. The boys running from their dad (who happened to have a hose in his hand) 1618. Reading lessons with the boys ("The ordinary parents guide to teaching reading") 1619. Close calls in the water - so thankful for God's protection 1620. Kids piled up in a small car 1621. Daily rides to Seth's (our mechanic) - luckily he lives on our street :) 1622. Cole making Avonlea laugh on a regular basis 1623. Blake counting down the days to things he is looking forward to - the latest, "my cousin's house...

1589. A change of plans (thought I was staying home with the kids and end up having a family adventure) 1590. Tricycles cruising down the mini mall halls (where the sign shop is) 1591. A very sweet and encouraging note from a sister in Christ 1592. Blake, Cole and Daddy playing their first round of Hungry, Hungry, Hippos 1593. Broccoli slaw - I never knew it existed 1594. Cole's constant affection towards his sister 1595. Blake counting down until his cousin's dance 1596. All three kids sitting through and enjoying the entire dance - for 3 hours :) 1597. Little and big dancers with beautiful smiles 1598. Avonlea dancing right along 1599. An unexpected dinner invitation 1600. Chatting with old friends until wee hours of the night - while their children entertained ours 1601. The sound of Blake's laugh as he jumped on a trampoline 1602. Learning to look forward to Christ's return - on good days and bad 1603. Encouraging words from a father figure 1604. Good...

1576. Heat lightning 1577. Last minute adventures 1578. An incredibly generous husband 1579. Blake excitedly running up our sidewalk with a bouquet of flowers for his mommy 1580. A wonderful Mother's day spent with my mom, my grandmother, my mother in law and of course Matt and the kids 1580. Stumbling across a restaurant in Boothbay where Moms eat free for Mother's day 1581. Curtain shopping 1582. Spending almost an entire day with just my grandma 1583. Seeing a dear friend who lives an hour and a half away two days in a row (the second day being a total surprise) 1584. Riding the trolly in Bath with 6 tow headed kids (ok, well maybe 5 considering the newest one is totally bald) and two wonderful gals 1585. God's unconditional love and grace 1586. The world's cutest apron - made even cuter because of who bought it for me. 1587. Cole's great grandmother buying him a stuffed owl without even knowing he loves owls 1588. Blake organizing the shoes in our m...

1567. Tiny braids 1568. Ticklish hands 1569. Drop in visitors 1570. A side of hot fudge 1571. "School time" and how excited Blake gets about it 1572. Accountability in prayer 1573. Christ's sacrifice 1574. Counting down days with my kids (Grandma and GiGi are coming in 5 days) 1575. New mercies every morning

1551. Morning kicks and laughs from a baby girl SO EXCITED to see her mommy :) 1552. The boys playing together more and arguing less 1553. The look on Blake's face when he saw his birthday cake (diggers and dumpers). 1554. A baby doll bed complete with home made sheets, pillow & blanket - made for Avonlea with love by her grammy. 1555. Red polka dot pajamas on a fluffy haired baby girl. 1556. Morning snuggles with my FOUR YEAR OLD! 1557. Fixing my computer with a simple google search 1558. Avonlea saying "more" in sign language 1559. Remembering Cole dancing to Easter morning worship 1560. Playing frisbee with my boys 1561. Avonlea playing in the sandbox 1562. Friends that pray for us 1563 An adorable surgery patient 1564. Looking at my daughter - and her looking directly back 1565. Chubby hands running under cool water (Avonlea's, not mine :) ) 1566. Boys picking flowers for mommy

1538. A new home for my computer (upstairs off the beaten path) 1539. Two boys giggling, laughing and quite thrilled tossing balls around 1540. Cleaning our mudroom 1541. Organizing my desk 1542. The way Avi looks at her brothers 1543. Getting a second opinion (the same) about Avonlea's eyes (infantile esotropia) - surgery would be a hard decision if there were varying opinions. 1544. The Lord's prayer 1545. A sweet email from my dad 1546. The boys in full winter gear playing in the sandbox 1547. Knowing that won't be necessary too much longer (the winter gear) 1548. A daily walk with the Creator of the universe 1549. A very unexpected compliment from someone I'm pretty insecure around (perhaps God's trying to tell me something) 1550. The fact that God communicates with His people - and that somehow, I'm one of His people :)

Those of you who know me well (ok, even just a little) know I have a tendency to beat myself up.  I often think things like, if I was a really a Christian I wouldn't have such a strong battle with sin.  I have always felt like my sin nature was beating my new nature.  But last night a good friend said something so wonderfully freeing and encouraging.  She said your battle is not against your sin nature - you don't have a sin nature.  It is against your flesh.  At first I didn't really understand the difference...even as Matt and I were driving home I still didn't get it.  I pondered it as I fell asleep and when I woke up this morning it just hit me.  Yes, I was born with a sin nature - we all are!  But the moment I accepted Christ as my Savior I was (and am) a new creation.  Where does that leave me though?  I still struggle with sin. Who cares whether we call it "a sin nature" or "flesh".  I was praying about that very thing a...

1514. Seven turkeys in our front yard - two thrilled boys. 1515. A week of incredibly rejuvenating weather and thankfulness for all seasons 1516. II Corinthians 12:9  “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”   1517. Being encouraged by the struggles and weaknesses of fellow mommies this weekend - remembering that I am not alone, parenting is challenging for all and God is glorified in our weaknesses as they lead us to His throne. 1518. Holding Matt's hand 1519. The sacrificial love of a dear family who watched, played with, loved on and encouraged our three kiddos this weekend 1520. Spending time with friends I've missed - even those who only live a few miles away 1521. Feeling the prayers of a friend 1522. Jesus is ENOUGH -  http://kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com/ (highly recommend reading Katie's incredible journey - she's given up, and therefor gained, everything for the Lord, and yet it is still in her weakness (and honesty...

1500. Chunky baby legs 1501. Compassion where there was once anger 1502. Tricycles on the Belfast bridge 1503. Praying with Matt 1504. Christ's blood that covers me 1505. The book Because He loves me , and the friend who gave it to me 1506. The song "His banner over me is love" which keeps running through my mind 1507. The promise that "He who begins a good work in me will be faithful to complete it" 1508. A faith family that lovingly, encouragingly accepts us even when we are making difficult decisions 1509. Friends who not only pray for me, but ask for prayer 1510. Avonlea's bottom two teeth which I can almost always see - because of the HUGE grin that she wears constantly 1511. Singing boys 1512. Hymns - and pandora 1513. Family, both immediate and extended, that love me no matter what.

Blessings 1486. Matt encouraging me (and himself) to go to bed by 9:00 - and me doing so with a really good attitude (ok, the last part is an exaggeration  lie ;P) 1487. Feeling so much better physically and emotionally because of more sleep and less sugar (both, thanks to Matt) 1488. Blake and Cole playing hide and seek - and cracking up every time they find each other 1489. Avonlea's pig tails  1490. A weekend just around the corner 1491. An encouraging "chat" then phone call from a friend I haven't spent much time with lately 1492. A grocery store run/parking lot chat with a "bosom buddy" 1493. Blake 1494. Cole 1495. Avonlea Blessings in the word ( Ephesians 4:25-32) 1496. The following examples of the "Putting off/Putting on"concept  - Put off FALSEHOOD - Put on SPEAKING THE TRUTH   - Put off STEALING - Put on WORK/SHARING  - Put off UNWHOLESOME TALK - Put on BUILDING OTHERS UP  - Put off BITTERNESS, RAGE, A...

Blessings 1470. Matt hiding all the sweets in the house from me - and me not going on a massive sweet hunt (YES, this is a blessing :-P) 1471. Cole "alright, LETS GO" - his enthusiastic reply to just about everything these days 1472. Blake giving Cole potty lessons 1473. Matt swinging by the grocery store just about every afternoon - and with a good attitude 1474. Hope that one of these days I'll get our meal plan and shopping days organized 1475. A God who loves me despite my imperfections 1476. A tough conversation with friends turning out just fine 1477. Friends Blessings in the word 1478. MUST - leaves no doubts 1479. the LIFE OF GOD 1480. The reminder not to HARDEN my HEART 1481. the WAY OF LIFE I learned when I HEARD ABOUT CHRIST 1482. TRUTH IS IN JESUS 1483. The concept of PUTTING OFF and PUTTING ON 1484. The hope of BEing made new (and knowing way down deep that even though it doesn't feel like it some days, this has already begun and will be a...

Blessings 1454. Not feeling like reading the word, doing it anyway - feeling rejuvenated 1455. 3 construction paper/glitter snowmen on our fridge (made by daddy, blake & cole) 1456. the X song (the boys singing "I get an X" every time they say, please, thank you, or yes mommy - even though half the time they never actually add their Xs) 1457. Matt making me go to bed early despite my arguments against it - and him being right, it definitely feels better in the morning 1458. An incredibly fun and busy week, followed by a week of catch up...enjoying both (well, most of the time) 1459. Cole waking up from his nap and singing "happy day to you" - remembering we were heading to a birthday party 1460. Visiting old friends and being encouraged by new ones 1461. Being late (like getting somewhere halfway through), but still being welcomed and loved 1462. Superbowl parties, or as our church called it a "large screen viewing event" 1463. Avonlea asleep...

Blessings 1441. Cole and Avonlea falling asleep with me on the couch (different times but on the same day)...and the fact that I am truly treasuring these moments, as I know how quickly they will pass 1442. Looking over at Blake during Sunday's worship service and seeing him with a confused look on his face and his hand in the air (imitating members of the worship team)...what a wonderful teachable moment :) 1443. Avonlea imitating my smile over and over as the praise team sang 1444. Telling a friend who was starting a bible study that leaving my house regularly with my 3 little ones is just too tiring to commit to - and the next thing I new the bible study was in my living room 1445. Cole singing "Jesus loves me" as I type out ways that he loves me 1446. Daddy, Blake and Cole making snow forts for hours 1447. A thought provoking  sermon by Matt Chandler (who I've actually never heard of, but enjoyed the sermon because of a friend's recommendation) 1448. ...

Blessings 1435. Blake's giggles as he watched Daddy put tool stickers above his bed 1436. Realizing that when "I" go for a walk, there's 4 of us.  Sounds silly, but it just kinda hit me as I ventured down the street "by myself". 1437. Holding Avi close 1438. Telling stories to my potty training boy...and the memories it brings of my "big boy". 1439. A friend who has set up a two day adventure for my kids and I (babysitting and all) 1440. Turning to the word of God for confidence when I am feeling insecure Scriptural Blessings 1441. I am a receiver of THE CALLING 1442. Knowing that though I will never BE COMPLETELY HUMBLE AND GENTLE & PATIENT, that God is at work in me in all of those areas - and will continue to refine me (as I allow Him to) until the day I am by His side 1443. There is  Unity of the Spirit  - no matter how many doctrinal differences believers have - we all have the incredible gift of Jesus Christ - and the ability (if...